Feel something!

Have you ever held in pain to the point where it seemed like you didn’t care? 
you could’ve sworn you were crying, 
but when you went to wipe tears away there was nothing there? 
Going through life empty. 
Just letting the world pass you by. 
Numb to any feelings, 
just wishing you could die. 
See I feel like this daily. 
so lost I don’t know what to feel. 
When in fact I do feel pain, I cant believe that it’s real. 
so as I lay my head down tonight, 
I close my eyes and pray. 
I pray that God will give me guidance !

Those Nights !

Have you ever been so upset you just completely broke down alone by yourself. Your parents can't tell and nor can your friends because you hide it behind a smile. You know you're not okay. Yet again, no one knows how you feel and you don't bother telling them because they have their own lives to deal with. So you store all your problems, all your sorrow, all your tears, all your hurt and all your pain. You'll take it out some other day, but not today.. Today's not the day. Because here's to the nights you dealt with more than you bargained for. All those sleepless nights crying so hard you couldn't breathe. To the nights you couldn't wait till everybody grew up because you were sick of them judging you. To all those nights you wished things would just get better. To all those good nights that turned to bad. To all those nights you wished you were older. To those nights that unfortunately came too soon.