Realized,,

I need to do things for me. Things that make me happy. I can’t stress that enough! I love and care about A-lot of people, but I should look out for myself too. I mean everyone else looks out for themselves, why shouldn’t I? I’m really starting to get the message, I mean people tell me enough. It has finally sunk in today because I found out a lot of things, some hurtful some real…. the past few days have helped me separate the fakes from the true…I can’t believe it took me this long to see…I regret it. I’ve been brainwashed. Constantly I get told what to do, I am an adult! This is just ridiculous. I am trying to not hate or resent certain people. We have all moved on I should too because I have just been stuck in the past. Oh I wish I could just explain and go on forever about this, I cannot stress it enough. I’ve lost so much and I am afraid to lose more. Things could have been different. I have been lied to, betrayed, made a fool, confused, exhausted oh the list goes on. People probably think I am so dumb for half the shit that happens…. Well NO MORE! I want to live my life be happy have fun no drama have best friends I trust and then snag a man because I am not wrapped up with other things. This isn’t coming out of nowhere I’ve felt this way for awhile….and due to recent events I am finally ready for change myself, I usually hate it but it is for the better right? sorry I am always so vague It’s just to vent and get the general idea out. Tomorrow is a new day to start over right?