It isn't, but it is.

After quite a long while of struggling with decisions—not so small ones, either—some hints to the truth have slowly become uncovered. Over the last few days, some things have slowly come into realization.

                                “At the end of the day, you are the one you have to live with.”

So why does it matter what other people think? In reality, it doesn’t. Think about it. You are the one living your life, and what’s the point if everyone around you is happy and you aren’t? It is so tempting to try and please everyone. Naturally, people want to feel accepted and want to be liked by others.
Well, you know what?
If people don’t like what you do, it is their problem, not yours.
If people aren’t happy with your decisions even though they make you perfectly happy, it is their problem, not yours.
If people judge you because you’ve found your niche, your passion, or someone to share it with, it is their problem, not yours.

Call me selfish, but I’ve learned that really, you have to do what is best for you. You’re the one who deals with your mind, your thoughts, your inner self. You live with you and everything about you. 

Do what you love, be with someone who makes you happy, strive for the best, and most importantly: Be you.

It's scary!!

It’s scary to know the fact that I have fallen for him.… and it’s scary that for once in my life that I’m actually happy again, more happy than I was before, and that’s because of him.… he’s done all things right to show me that not all guys are the same. And the best part of it all was that I showed him that not all girls are the same as well.… but the most terrifying thing is knowing that one day it may all just disappear… that’s why it’s so hard, so hard not to get attached and hold on to something that’s soo great, that’s so right, but I know what I’m doing is best for me. As much as I want to tell him I won’t, at least not anytime soon.… for now I’m going to keep it to myself and enjoy what I have, I can’t tell the future all I can do is enjoy what I have now…. but it’s nice to admit to myself that I have fallen for him and that I’m happy again. It’s just all scary xp

The Strong and the Weak

God does not place a burden on a person greater than they can bare. We’ve all heard and read the infamous verse from Surah Baqarah in the Qur’an, as its been an immediate motivator for anyone experiencing difficulty to pick themselves up and pull through hardship. 

I was reflecting today, and came to the conclusion that I am a weak human being with the capacity for little. So are you.

If you’re reading this post, chances are you’re living in a setting where you have comfortable internet access. You’re probably reading this off your laptop, phone, or just about any other mobile device out there. You’ve probably had food today. You have a roof over your head. Many of the problems you THINK you have are issues others in this world would consider luxuries. The burdens placed on you are not of the stark magnitude others undergo. 

I’m not going to write the cliche paragraph about those around the world living in terrible conditions: poverty, drought, famine, tyrannical oppression, and more. You’re well aware of it. To know Allah swt has placed a burden on them so large made me realize that they are stronger than us, and can bare so much more. 

Society’s perception of those who are strong and those who are weak has become so skewed (or perhaps it always has been), when in reality those who are going through the most struggle are the strongest, and those with the least are weaker. 

Oppressors, in all their might and prestige, are weak. The oppressed are stronger. 
The rich are weak, the poor strong.

And determining any of that is not up to us.

Just my thoughts ..

Am I normal? I like to sit in my room for hours and hours, alone. I want to isolate myself from this world I live in, in order to find happiness. I normally do things alone, and find that ten times more productive, than if it was with another person. I don’t think there are many people out there like me, but silence is beautiful. It gives humans a chance to purify their emotions. We have so much chaos in our lives, that it’s needed to have one of those lazy quiet days. 

Feel something!

Have you ever held in pain to the point where it seemed like you didn’t care? 
you could’ve sworn you were crying, 
but when you went to wipe tears away there was nothing there? 
Going through life empty. 
Just letting the world pass you by. 
Numb to any feelings, 
just wishing you could die. 
See I feel like this daily. 
so lost I don’t know what to feel. 
When in fact I do feel pain, I cant believe that it’s real. 
so as I lay my head down tonight, 
I close my eyes and pray. 
I pray that God will give me guidance !

Those Nights !

Have you ever been so upset you just completely broke down alone by yourself. Your parents can't tell and nor can your friends because you hide it behind a smile. You know you're not okay. Yet again, no one knows how you feel and you don't bother telling them because they have their own lives to deal with. So you store all your problems, all your sorrow, all your tears, all your hurt and all your pain. You'll take it out some other day, but not today.. Today's not the day. Because here's to the nights you dealt with more than you bargained for. All those sleepless nights crying so hard you couldn't breathe. To the nights you couldn't wait till everybody grew up because you were sick of them judging you. To all those nights you wished things would just get better. To all those good nights that turned to bad. To all those nights you wished you were older. To those nights that unfortunately came too soon.

Regrets.

Growing up I guess the most important thing I’ve learned is to know when to swallow your pride and let go because no matter how much you want to, theres somethings you can’t go back and change. Time goes on and people move on. You can’t take back what you’ve done to in the past but only hope the people youve hurt can forgive you when it counts.