I believe in art...

I believe in the power of music. Music has the power to move people; the power to bring tears to your eyes, joy to your heart and give you a whole new lens through which to view the world and your life.

I believe in the beauty of dance. Dance is a beautiful way to tell a story. The story is in the movement of her hips and the placement of his hands; the bend of his back and point of her toes.

I believe in the healing that happens through visual art. I can see the pain released through the fingertips of the painter; the joy expressed in the eyes of the portrait, the courage of the bold charcoal statement.

I believe in art. I believe in the power, beauty and healing that happens through every medium, every story and every artist. I believe in creation. I believe in the feeling that comes over you when you have completed a masterpiece. I believe in the way that every piece of art is beautiful. I believe in the fact that art can’t be graded or judged. I believe in the way that art equalizes. The way that every product is viewed separate from it’s creator and at the same time, in every way, the creator is in it.

Like art itself, it is simple, it is complicated, and it is beautiful. “I believe in art”.

Realized,,

I need to do things for me. Things that make me happy. I can’t stress that enough! I love and care about A-lot of people, but I should look out for myself too. I mean everyone else looks out for themselves, why shouldn’t I? I’m really starting to get the message, I mean people tell me enough. It has finally sunk in today because I found out a lot of things, some hurtful some real…. the past few days have helped me separate the fakes from the true…I can’t believe it took me this long to see…I regret it. I’ve been brainwashed. Constantly I get told what to do, I am an adult! This is just ridiculous. I am trying to not hate or resent certain people. We have all moved on I should too because I have just been stuck in the past. Oh I wish I could just explain and go on forever about this, I cannot stress it enough. I’ve lost so much and I am afraid to lose more. Things could have been different. I have been lied to, betrayed, made a fool, confused, exhausted oh the list goes on. People probably think I am so dumb for half the shit that happens…. Well NO MORE! I want to live my life be happy have fun no drama have best friends I trust and then snag a man because I am not wrapped up with other things. This isn’t coming out of nowhere I’ve felt this way for awhile….and due to recent events I am finally ready for change myself, I usually hate it but it is for the better right? sorry I am always so vague It’s just to vent and get the general idea out. Tomorrow is a new day to start over right?

Hidden thoughts...

Its funny how we feel soo much but we don’t say a word, We’re screaming inside but we can’t be heard, We’re on this roller coaster of emotions to the highest point, then it suddely drops, it changes direction, but where is this change that was turned too…? -Life changes & so dont people for the good & sadly the bad.

What am I really?

I am but a human is a sea of humanity.

I am creature amongst billions and billions and billions of living organisms.

I am a very small mass on a much larger one.

I am a spec of dust on rock, which is one of many rocks doing the cosmic and potentially infinite dance, going round and round.

I’m merely an atom that is a very small part of the whole body, the universe.

Most importantly, I am a servant of Allah (swt),

I really want to hate you, but I can’t.

I’m trying to figure out what exactly has been worrying me. I have this roller coaster of feelings


 and it’s not like I’m


sad or anything, I just.. I don’t feel anything- it’s almost like I’m apathetic, but I still feel. Does that


 make sense?


I’m not sure if this is just a reaction to all my memories or, yeah, I don’t even know. I just. I don’t 


care about most


 things anymore- it makes me kind of an ass, but I’d just rather be a bit cold hearted than put


 myself in a situation 


where I’m hurt again. I’m not going back to feeling hurt in any way, not happening.


I am going to be stronger than who I was. Things change, people change; life happens, and it


 moves on.  

Another thought.

Sometimes it's hard to complain about life. It hurts you so much that it makes you too numb to even sense the pain. To smell misery. To feel the teardrops falling from your eyes. To hear the sadness flowing through your soul. To know what melancholy tastes like. To touch the endless stack of hurtful memories gathered at the bottom of your heart. And to finally realize that everything happens for a greater cause.

Giving in.

Sometimes there’s just certain people in your life, when even though you tell yourself “I’m not going to talk to them anymore”, you end up doing so anyways. You think you won’t reply or even a text message when they send you one, but you can’t help it. There’s just something that urges you to reply to them, even though you know in the end it doesn’t mean anything special. They’re probably just bored and want someone to talk to just because. To them it won’t mean anything, but to you it has a completely different meaning. And the first time it happens you say the next time you won’t give in, but… you do anyways. 

Life Happens.

People fall in love.

People fall out of love.

Everyone makes mistakes.Maybe it’s you this time.
Maybe it will be you next time. 

The best we can do is take responsibility for our actions, and be there for people when they need us.

We are ALL people. We are all capable of being hurt and hurting others.
Some people forget that… and focus only on themselves, their own pain, their own happiness. Be a good friend. Friendship responsibly. 

Thought of the day

Bismillah

I’ve been called a lot of things in my life. Good things, bad things, neutral, both ways and the likes. I’ve been liked by people, and i’ve been hated. We’ve all been there. We can’t be perfect to everyone, right? and we can’t really like everyone sometimes. Even we have some people that we don’t really like to associate with sometimes. 

Though Im thankful to God. for the things that people see me, and the things that people think of me, there’s still a lot of things that people dont see. That i hide from people. there are things that i am ashamed of myself. A lot of things people don’t see that. and im thankful. Allah has helped me to cover up my short comings. For only He can see everything that i do, and it is within His power to expose or to cover the things we do. so i’m thankful for the things that Allah has covered for me. 

There’s a lot of things i do, that i am really disappointed at. bad things. i may be exaggerating by saying all this, but personally, i know the things that i’ve done, the things i’ve thought, and the things that i’ve said, and there were many things that are bad and sinful and hurtful. 

So I pray to God, to forgive me and all my sins. I hope that the people that i’ve hurt before can forgive my mistakes and my short comings. I hope that my parents and family members can forgive me for my mistakes i’ve done to them. 

We live in a society. we can’t ignore other people. so, one way or another, we may or may not have hurt someone without we realizing. I pray that those people can find it in their hearts to forgive me. I need to make the effort to ask forgiveness to those who i may hurt in the past. and i need to do it before i die. for when i die, i will lose the chance to ask. and that bad deed will stick with me till the day of judgement. and i fear for that. 

People may think that i’m a generic good girl as i try to be good and caring as the best that i can. but people dont realize that everyone has problems of their own. and sins of their owns. so dont be quick to judge a person without even knowing them. A problem to someone can be nothing to others, and something that is nothing to someone can be a major problem for someone else. 

think about that. 

I pray that Allah would forgive all my sins, and grant me wisdom and the strength to pay back all that i’ve neglect all these while. Grant us strength to stand by the truth and to do the things that You’ve ordered to us and to abstain from the things that You’ve judged wrong. forgive us all ya Allah. forgive us.  

InshaAllah

ps: a state of humility and asking forgiveness is better than thinking that there is no judgement and that we are free from sins. for when we know that every action has a consequence in the future, InsHaAllah, we would abstain from it. for every action has consequences….