I really want to hate you, but I can’t.

I’m trying to figure out what exactly has been worrying me. I have this roller coaster of feelings


 and it’s not like I’m


sad or anything, I just.. I don’t feel anything- it’s almost like I’m apathetic, but I still feel. Does that


 make sense?


I’m not sure if this is just a reaction to all my memories or, yeah, I don’t even know. I just. I don’t 


care about most


 things anymore- it makes me kind of an ass, but I’d just rather be a bit cold hearted than put


 myself in a situation 


where I’m hurt again. I’m not going back to feeling hurt in any way, not happening.


I am going to be stronger than who I was. Things change, people change; life happens, and it


 moves on.