Regrets.

Growing up I guess the most important thing I’ve learned is to know when to swallow your pride and let go because no matter how much you want to, theres somethings you can’t go back and change. Time goes on and people move on. You can’t take back what you’ve done to in the past but only hope the people youve hurt can forgive you when it counts. 

Pourin' Out My Heart

You know, you never know what you got til it’s gone. So cherish life, every minute of it. I wish I knew that before I had to write this. Is the world this cold? … Man I don’t know. My best friend, my homie , my crime partner…the only one that knew me. Showed me so many things.
 Memories of you and I, make me cry. Tears keep falling down on my pillow. Falling for my angel - cause I know you’re watching. There’s so many things I wish I could say to you before you ever went away. Cause now I’m sitting here missing you,more and more like every day. Now If I knew then what I know now, I would say, “I love you” everyday and everytime I got to be around you. But I know now, you’re in a better place then you ever been before. But now it’s hard for me, to live with the fact that you’re gone from me. And I’m mad about the fact that you ain’t coming back | RIP sweetheart, 6 August 2011 - Forever

Monday..

Just sitting here on the computer typing out my thoughts and feelings instead of telling an actual human being. I’m one of those people that like to write out there thoughts and feelings. I can’t imagine actually being face to face with someone and telling them. For me it will be tough. That might also be because I’m sorta of a shy girl. I’m sorta independent I like to stay to myself. So pretty much I like to bottle things up and compress them. Some people think that that’s a bad way of doing things but for me it works perfectly fine. I live by the saying “Fake smile fool everybody.” In my opinion I find no need for people to be worried about me for MY problems. They are my problems not theirs so I find no reason to include them. Even though I’m not gonna lie I wouldn’t mind having like that one person I can tell absolutely anything to. People like that are hard to find. It also takes a lot of time...

I needed to write..

I thought I promised myself to not be affected by this again but it just came back like it never left me. I knew I couldn’t just force myself to forget it so easily. I really should be more honest to myself.

I never really forgot. Even though the reality of it hurts me every time I think of it, it really bring the best out of me, and it is just too precious to simply forget and throw away…and that’s I can never let go of it. What’s life without a little pain anyway?

I’ll endure this. Someday.

10 Reasons To Never Give Up ..

1. As long as you are alive, anything is possible.
The only valid excuse you have to give up is if you are dead. As long as you are alive (and healthy and free) you have the choice to keep trying until you finally succeed.

2. Be realistic.
The chance of mastering something the first time you do it is almost non-existent. Everything takes time to learn and you will make mistakes. Learn from them.

3. You are strong.
You are stronger than you think. One little setback is not enough to stop you from achieving your goals. Neither are 10 or 100 or 1000 setbacks.

4. Prove yourself.
You don’t want to be known as someone that is weak and gives up. Go out there and prove yourself to the world and to yourself. You CAN and WILL achieve what you set out to do. The only time you fail is when you give up.

5. Believe in your dreams.
Don’t sell yourself short. In life there are going to be many people who will try to bring you down and tell you what you want to achieve is not possible.

6. Your family and friends.
Let the people you love and who mean the world to you be your inspiration to persist and persevere. Maybe you need to try a different angle, study more or practice more but don’t give up!

7. There are people worse-off.
Right now there are many people who are in a worse situation and environment than you are. Are you thinking about giving up running 5 miles a week? Think about the people who are unable to even walk and how much they would give to be able to run 5 miles every day.

8. You deserve to be happy
.Don’t ever let anybody tell you otherwise. You deserve to be happy and you deserve to have success. Keep that mindset and never give up until you reach your destination!

9. Inspire others.
Be an inspiration to others by refusing to give up. Who knows what someone else can achieve because you never gave up and in turn inspired them not to give up.

10. You are so close.
Often when you feel like you want to give up you are so close to making a huge breakthrough. You are just a heartbeat away from success.

The Road to finding yourself can be quite complex...

There are wrong turns and dead ends everywhere you go. Everyone hopes not to incounter them, but realize it’s those dead ends and wrong turns that make us who we really are. Don’t aspire to be someone else’s definition of beauty. Let yourself define it by simply being your own self, without any influences or restrictions.

You’re screaming to the world…

…that you want to be left alone but all you really want is someone to be there for you for once. You just want people to stop disappointing you. You just want to feel safe. But how can you feel safe in a place like this? Yet when you’re by yourself, you feel worst than ever.